Embracing A Full Life

Happy Thursday! It’s been awhile since I’ve done a healthy food post. In addition, this one is completely out of my comfort zone because I don’t bake, and neither does Jeff. Never have. Last year I was introduced to an oat bran muffin recipe that was relatively healthy. But, it didn’t fall within my health parameters. The original muffin had way too much sugar for my liking, as well as oil which I honestly saw no need for. So I started making changes to the recipe and have come out with one I’m proud to share! A few notes before the recipe.

If you have allergies make the necessary adjustments.  You could also always add more great nutrients, like chia seeds, flax seeds, probably even protein powder.  But, now I’m getting out of my baking comfort zone.  🙂 That said, I will start spreading my wings and trying new variations of these muffins.  I’m also considering making small healthy cookies out of them.  Let my baking business begin!  Ha!

Blueberry Blast Muffins

2 1/2 Cups Oat Bran

1 Cup Almond Milk

1 Cup Frozen Blueberries**

2 Egg Whites or Dried Egg Whites

4 TBSP Harmless Harvest Plain Coconut Yogurt

2 TBSP Cinnamon 

1 Cup Unsweetened Applesauce

1 TBSP Vanilla Extract

1/2 TBSP Erythritol 

Mix all dry ingredients, then add all wet ingredients.  I find it easier to mix things up that way.  Mix well.  Feel free to add more frozen blueberries.  While I have Whole Foods 365 Organic Blueberries in this batch, I love using Wyman’s Wild Frozen Blueberries.  They are smaller which I find mix better.  On the other hand, these sure do burst through the muffins with flavor.  **A post recipe update! I froze my own fresh blueberries and WOW what a difference. They exploded and the flavor is phenomenal. Also, I froze them because they weren’t super sweet fresh, but in the muffins they were amazing. What a difference. Adjust seasonings to taste, but these measurements are about what I am using.  The vanilla extract is key!

I like getting individual unsweetened applesauce as they can stay in the pantry as opposed to a full jar going bad in the refrigerator if I don’t use up in the near future. And if you haven’t been introduced to dried egg whites I love them. They too won’t sit around in the fridge. Very convenient for baking. I ordered mine on Amazon.

I use a 12 Cup Silicone Muffin Pan, which I also ordered on Amazon. Now, the baking time.  Different ovens different times.  So, for my regular oven I’m baking these at 425 for 40 to 45 minutes.  I do the knife test and see if there is any moisture on the inside.  Then I use the knife around the sides to loosen them up.  I let them sit about 15 minutes and then they pop out.  I keep some in the fridge that I know we will eat in a few days.  The rest go in the freezer.

Now, for ways to enjoy these healthy bites of goodness!  

Breakfast, Mid Day Snack or Desert!

Spread peanut or nut butter of your choosing.  Warm up muffin and nut butter.  Delicious.  Sprinkle a little cinnamon on top. And you do not need a lot of nut butter to enjoy.  Because you know you are going to stick that spoon right back in the jar for more, right?? Or, add regular butter, or vegan.  Again, a little goes a long way.  Even better, a little of both “butters”. Reminder, always buy unsweetened nut butters and NO hydrogenation.

Warm up muffin and crumble with a healthy greek or vegan yogurt. Always look for ones with only natural or very little added sugar.  Add fruit toppings such as more blueberries or raspberries. Adding frozen blueberries if fun too as if you wait about 10 minutes they will melt into the yogurt and warm muffin. Mmmm good!

For those counting calories these are approximately 120 calories a piece. When I get around to it I’ll do full nutritional breakdown. The reason I haven’t is I love every ingredient in this. Oat bran benefits are fantastic, blueberries are one of the best fruits out their for your health, and no sneaky sugars!

Reach out if you have any questions and then pull out those aprons and start baking!

Simple, Healthy and Delicious!!!!!!!

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A few weeks ago I participated in my first 300 Hour Teacher Training with Asheville Yoga Center.  I didn’t plan this at all, but with being in our new abnormal, I was eager to expand my education, for both my personal life and to help others.

I signed up for Senior Yoga TT because it’s a passion of mine to help others as they mature, as well as keep myself physically and mentally healthy to live my life to the fullest.

If you know anything about me, you would know that I believe age is just a number.  But, with that number comes changes in our body and mind.  It also requires for us to do the work, because we cannot perform at our best without self care.  In any area of our life.  If overwork, overeating, overindulging, drinking too much, not drinking enough water, not enough sleep, too much time in front of a screen, etc, etc, has not caught up with you, it will.  It’s only a matter of time.

What was also super intriguing about this course was a lot of it covered chronic pain as well as physical and mental health conditions.  A win win!  

It was taught by Libby Hinsley.  She is a Physical Therapist, Yoga Therapist and a E-RYT 500 Yoga Teacher.  In English that means, she has achieved over 500 hours of teacher training, and has taught over 2,000 hours of yoga!  500 of those hours need to be taught after receiving your 300 Hours!  She also studied at Krishnamacharya Yoga Mandiram in India, with her inspiration being on Viniyoga.   She is an outstanding instructor and I look forward to doing more training with her.

What is Viniyoga, you ask? I found the best explanation from the Yoga Institute in Australia. “The viniyoga of Yoga can be described as the intelligent and systematic application of yoga tools and techniques according to the unique needs and circumstances of the individual.”**. Believe it or not, I was not familiar with Viniyoga and what really resonated with me is that it’s not tied to any specific style, but instead adapted to the individual who is practicing.  So if you think you can’t do yoga, think again. 

While I learned so very much about teaching chair yoga, gentle yoga, restorative, and balance, the biggest nugget was this.  Yoga is really a practice for life, not a workout, which is what many of us have made it given the popularity of classes like Hot Power Vinyasa.  

To paraphrase Libby, by being slow and intentional and paying attention to each breath and movement, we are able to sink our awareness into what’s happening in the body.  By practicing that in yoga,  we get opportunities for that state of awareness in our day to day life, in areas that matter so much more.

The true essence of yoga is breath, focus and movement that we can take with us as we walk through life no matter what obstacles may come our way.  And the more you practice this on the mat, by slowing down, your other workouts and more intense yoga practices will improve.  Trust me.  I do all kinds of workouts.  Stairs, Running, Lifting, Cycling, Hiking and Hot Power Yoga.  The benefits of slowing things down have only enhanced everything else I do.  It’s been especially telling since the pandemic started. 

But the big win is how much it will impact what really matters.  Our overall existence.  We are all in a new way of living that sadly, doesn’t appear to be ending soon. And it’s hard.  Damn hard.  That’s where our practice really matters.  Inhale then Exhale.  Steady the gaze, steady the mind, and then one foot in front of the other.   You’ve got this.  Namaste.  

**https://yogainstitute.com.au/viniyogah-what-is-viniyoga/

To learn more about Libby click here:  https://www.libbyhinsley.com

To learn more about all Asheville Yoga Center has to offer click here: https://www.youryoga.com

November is here.  I love this time of year.  I love the crisp fall air, leaves changing colors, pumpkins and all things autumn.  Not only that, I am so fortunate to have kicked off the month with returning to one of my favorite cities, Chicago, to climb up Willis Tower, aka Sears Tower, for the 5th time.  And today I’m heading to San Diego for an exciting mentorship with “Get Your Mind Right”, Todd Durkin, which I’ll share more about when I return. After that, I return to Charlotte for another weekend of my 300 Hour Yoga TT.  And then before you know it, Thanksgiving is here. So much to be excited about and very, very grateful for.

That said, yesterday marked the two year anniversary when we lost my dad to lung cancer.  Not only that, it’s also Lung Cancer Awareness Month.  It’s funny the timing of things isn’t it?  I don’t believe in accidents.  The universe works in ways that we may not understand now, or for that matter, ever, but I do believe there is always a reason.  With this weighing heavy on my heart, I started to feel that pull inward last week. I started getting anxious about going to Chicago for the race and then just 3 days later to San Diego.  I actually thought about cancelling everything.  Grief,  it’s different for everyone.  The biggest thing I’ve experienced is how and when it manifested in my life.  It took awhile.  Initially I was in “manager” mode.  Taking care of things, worried about my mom who lives 3000 miles away.  Missing my dad terribly.  Loss can bring you to your knees.  It affects you both mentally & physically.  Last winter was a tough one for me.  With back pain that escalated to the point of tears, combined with feeling the intense loss of my dad, I shut down.  Seasonal depression is real and combining that with physical pain, well, I was not in a good place.  When April rolled around and I started figuring out what I needed to do to address the physical pain, the emotional started to lift.   And I started figuring things out, both physically and mentally.  It’s a work in progress for sure.  Some days are better than others.  When I have those low days, I remind myself that one of the things that is most important to me is my dad’s memory being a blessing.  And I can’t do that from the sidelines.  

I believe that you have to bring light to darkness.  My dad was such a good man with a big heart.  If I know one thing for sure, he wouldn’t want anyone to go through what he did.  And he would be so proud of the “work” I do.  And that’s not just my work with the American Lung Association, but  I’m sure he was beaming with pride that I was in DC fighting the fight on the hill as ALA’s Lung Force Hero.  He would be so proud that I’m continuing to expand my passion for wellness and getting out there and making a difference.  And he would be bragging to everyone he’d meet, that I’m running around the world climbing up tall buildings. 

After a whirlwind weekend in Chicago and as I am heading out West, I realize that these steps I take up buildings, are the metaphor of life. In the beginning it’s pretty easy, but as you keep going things get a lot tougher.  You’re alone. There’s pain, struggle and heartache.  But, when you get to the top it’s a combination of pure exhaustion, relief, accomplishment and euphoria.  And, you are not alone.  You never were.  You celebrate this incredible feat with your “family, your peeps, your tribes”.  They are there for and with you on your journey, and you on theirs.  

I am grateful for some of my dearest friends I got to spend the weekend with, my “step” sibs who I am blessed to also call friends, and the new people I will meet this week.  

With the holiday celebrations kicking off this month I know first hand that it’s a difficult time for many.  I understand. I hope by sharing bits and pieces of my journey that you know you are not alone. You never were.

In peace and love.

It was an honor and extreme privilege to be invited to the invitational heat of the Empire Run Up for the 4th year in a row. The best climbers from around the world were there. After a not so stellar performance Tuesday night, along with kicking myself in the ass for not realizing where the finish line was, I initially experienced a wide rage of emotions.  But with that comes perspective on what really matters. 

With race #32 in the books I have had so many life lessons in the stairwell. One of the most important has been that at the end of the day this is about so much more than how fast I made it to the top.  It’s about our resiliency in life. It’s showing up even when roads have taken us off course. It’s about being a warrior for not just ourselves but for others. 

I’m beyond grateful to have a strong & fit body that took me up 86 floors and 1,556 steps. It doesn’t come easy. I put in the work, no matter what obstacles come in my way, physical and mental.  And recently, I’ve had to make  major adjustments in my training.  We all have individual challenges that come our way when we least expect it.  That is all part of our journey of life. 

As I reflect on my race Tuesday night I know I did my best.  It may be different than last year but I gave it everything I had.  And that’s what life is about.  Putting in the work to achieve whatever goals you have.  And knowing that even if you have some speed bumps or detours that may take you off course, as long as you know you gave it everything you had, then you are a winner. 

“You are stronger than you believe. You have greater powers than you know.”-Antiope (Wonder Woman)

As many of you may already know, I’m passionate about health and fitness. If I could create a new job for myself I would be a Health Educator.  Come to think to it, it’s never too late to start! I guess my blog is as good a place as any to share some of the latest information out there.

This first post in my new position as your Online Health Awareness Educator, is All About Sugar!  That’s right, sugar.  No matter how sweet it is, the research shows that sugar is not something you want as a main staple in your diet.  Diabetes, Heart Disease, Liver Disease, Cancer and Obesity are all health issues that Sugar plays a major role in.

This is a great article explaining how Sugar impacts the body and contributes to the health issues I referenced above.  http://sugarscience.ucsf.edu/too-much-can-make-us-sick/#.XI_Tti3Mw1g

Unfortunately, Sugar is the master of disguise and comes hidden in many forms such as honey, agave, high fructose corn syrup and evaporated cane juice, just to name a few. In addition, sugar is added to so many popular convenience foods, even the “healthier” ones.  Many people think they don’t have a sweet tooth but don’t realize how much added sugar is already in their diet.

Another important thing to pay attention to is the difference between Glucose and Fructose.  Glucose can be metabolized by almost every cell in the body, Fructose is almost entirely metabolized in the liver.  So, if you think heavy alcohol consumption is the only danger to the liver, think again.  Check out this link for a simple breakdown of the types of sugar and what you need to be looking for.  https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/56-different-names-for-sugar#section2

While I’m used to mass marketing of sugary products by major manufacturers, which is a huge impact of our rise of disease, what also frustrates me is what I see on the internet. Particularly in the land of social media and local “celebrity” bloggers.  There are many supposed “healthy” bloggers out there who talk about living a balanced lifestyle.   I’m sorry, a half a cup of Ben & Jerry’s Chunky Monkey has 300 calories with 28 grams of sugar.  That means 1/3rd of that half a cup is all sugar!  The recommendations from the American Heart Association on daily added sugar is 25 grams/6 teaspoons for women and 36 grams/9 teaspoons for men. Click here for more info:  https://www.heart.org/en/healthy-living/healthy-eating/eat-smart/sugar/added-sugar

What bothers me most is many of us, myself included, follow blogs.  Being an amateur blogger myself, there are so many great ones out there that I really enjoy following.  But remember, many popular bloggers out there are not experts in nutrition, especially many of the Fitness Professionals, be it a Personal Trainer, Pilates Instructor, Yoga Instructor or the like.

And just because they are incorporating baked goods, sweets and decadent ice cream into their day, it doesn’t mean you should be doing the same.  Don’t get me wrong.  Of course you are going to have special celebrations, parties, and holidays where you should let yourself enjoy your favorite desert.  If you care about your health, they shouldn’t be daily occurrences, whether you are trying to lose weight or not.  Just because someone is “skinny” or looks super fit, does not mean their insides are healthy.  Remember, heart disease is the #1 Killer of Women (and men)!  Sugar is a big deal when it comes to your heart health.

There are so many ways to satisfy your “sweet” tooth that don’t involve compromising your health. I’ll conclude with this short but powerful segment on sugar that I hope you will ALL take the time to watch.  Remember, your health is worth it. http://www.cbn.com/tv/1570293751001?mobile=false

In good health my friends!

In Chinese Medicine they believe in living in harmony with the seasons.  There are five seasons, winter, spring, summer, late summer and fall.  As the seasons change so too should some of our daily habits, in order to create more balance with ourselves and the environment.

Winter in Traditional Chinese Medicine is associated with the kidneys. The kidneys are where the fire is inside us…the source of energy for our entire body.  With the colder weather, less daylight and changes in nature around us, it is a time for us to “slow down” and nourish ourselves, both physically and mentally.   A time to go inward in order to emerge refreshed and renewed come spring.  To learn more click on this link. https://www.chinesemedicineliving.com/nutrition/seasons/winter/

In this winter of 2019 I am finding myself wanting to stop all the external noise and step away, doing some deep refection and soul searching, opening up some pain and sadness that is all too often muffled and silenced by the world around us.  And by the “busy” lives we often choose to live in, in order not to stop and listen. 

In addition, I’ve felt the need to step away from social media, Facebook and Instagram.  It was all consuming for me and keeping me more present in other people’s lives, and less my own. The funny thing I’ve noticed is how “connected” we stay with even our closest friends and family via social media, as since some of my relationships feel almost distant.  I can’t blame anyone but myself for that, as I take full responsibility for not making phone calls, coffee or lunch dates or meeting a friend for a workout. 

With the days being chilly and sometimes raw, rainy with lack of sunshine, I feel the pull of the season and have chosen to retreat to the comforts of home and my immediate surroundings.  Having moved recently to an apartment complex that provides just about everything…. a 7000 square foot gym, a sauna, social activities, walking distance to my yoga studio, supermarket, etc, it’s easy to not “go” anywhere!  So, with the season of Winter upon us and my own innate tendencies to be a homebody, I know Spring is right around the corner.  With that comes the bright sunshine which I will soak in and relish. The long walks with Oliver, easy runs, Freedom Park workouts, and Al Fresco dining are just on the horizon. And even sooner will be the time change, and that extra hour of light makes all the difference. But for now I will honor my inner voice and make the necessary shifts in accordance with how I feel and be in tune with the season of winter.

Instead of allowing myself to feel limited by the shorter and darker days, I have used this time to expand my creative juices by writing again, reading more, researching some new opportunities, indulging in some marathon Netflix, from documentaries to love stories, and oh my, “Grace & Frankie”, all while wrapped in my cozy blanket with a cup of tea and my sweet Oliver curled up beside me. Our little Ragu, almost 16, sleeps in his warm bed and our sweet Gabby, over 18, curled up in the closet. It’s always interesting how our furry children know exactly what they need as the seasons change.

This season of Winter has taken on a new meaning for me, one of enlightenment and gratitude. Without the changes of the seasons and ultimately the changes we go through in our lives, we cannot fully embrace who we are and who we are evolving to be.

It’s been several months since I’ve written a blog.  Somehow life has just gotten in the way, but in a good way!

With Thanksgiving this week, I think it’s time for an updated Holiday Survival Guide!  This is the time of year everyone overindulges, be it in food, alcohol, late nights out…you name it!  Of course most of this goes hand in hand.  In addition, we also go through a lot of stress and pressure.  Family events, business parties, social obligations…getting it all on the calendar and keeping ones sanity doesn’t make it any easier.  In addition, many people do not have joyous holidays and often feel alone and sad.  Unfortunately, it’s not all the “Hallmark” Holiday Movies many of us get caught up in.

All of this often can lead to making decisions that we may not normally make.  Unfortunately, most of us experience a tremendous amount of guilt when this happens.  Often it’s delayed…we think about it but say, well, it’s the holidays!  I’ll make “changes” come the New Year.  We all know resolutions are not worth the time it takes to make them.  Research shows that it’s the small steps we take every day that help us accomplish and maintain our successes in life.  So, back to my tips and tricks to survive November and December, so you avoid the dreaded “holiday hangover” on January 1st!

As most of you know, I’m a foodie!  My motto is:  Simple, Healthy and Delicious.  I’m also a bit of a fitness fanatic!  But I believe strongly that you can enjoy great food and wine and not send yourself over the edge.  So here are some of my tips!

• Think before you eat.
• Make good choices.
• Always bring something healthy to a party.  Always.
• Prepare and bring food that you like and want to eat!
• Don’t starve yourself all day so you can eat later.
• Do you really like mashed potatoes?  Or sweet potatoes with gooey marshmallow?
• Do you even like pecan pie?  I don’t!
• Are you “drinking” to fit in?  Because everyone else is?
• Stay away from the sugary alcoholic and non alcoholic beverages and stick with sparkling water, wine, wine spritzers, light beer, or even hard alcohol, sans the sodas, syrups, etc.  
• Drink water.
• If you love something, eat it!  But you don’t have to overindulge.  Savor your bites!
• Be mindful.
• Just say no!  It’s ok!  You don’t have to be “polite”.
• Make no excuses for your choices.  Trust me, others wish they did the same.
• Start reading healthy food blogs!   Here are a few of my favorite holiday recipes!
• https://www.skinnytaste.com/shrimp-ceviche-cocktail
• https://www.skinnytaste.com/stuffed-turkey-breasts-with-butternut
• https://againstallgrain.com/2014/11/20/pumpkin-pudding-egg-free-dairy-free
• https://www.marthastewart.com/1050681/brussels-sprout-salad-avocado-and-pumpkin-seeds
• https://deliciouslyella.com/2017/07/26/quinoa-sweet-potato-raisin-salad
• Get in 30 minutes of exercise daily. No excuses!  
• Mediate…even if it’s just 5 minutes to center yourself.
• Breathe.
• Sleep.
• Be grateful for all the abundance in your life.
• Don’t forget, this isn’t your last meal.

The holidays are meant to be enjoyed.   Honor your body, spirit and mind.  By doing so the transition to 2019 will be a much smoother journey.

This past Sunday marked our four week anniversary with Oliver, and what a joy he is is.  With so much loss and sadness since losing my dad on November 5th and then Wesley on January 18th, it’s hard to believe that you can shake the incredible amount of sadness & emptiness you feel.  But with life comes loss.  With loss comes pain, and often, hopelessness.  And it’s not something my husband or friends can take away.  It’s there.  I acknowledge it, and yes, sometimes I cry in the closet.  But, by allowing myself to accept that unconditional and unwavering love that only a rescue can provide, well, life does move on.  And we grow…..we move forward.  

While I would do anything to change the course of events since my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer in July 2017, I do believe that everything happens as it’s supposed to.  Why?  Maybe to move us closer to who we are and what our purpose in life is.  Maybe, just maybe, they were here in our lives for the time they were supposed to be.  My dad lived to be 80 years old.  He had a lot of health issues throughout his life, but we shared such a special relationship and spent so much time together.  I know a lot of people don’t have the kind of relationship I did with my father.  For that I am forever grateful.

And then our sweet, sweet Wesley.  My intuitive told me that Wesley came into my life to open up a part of me that had been closed for a long time.  That his “work” was done in his previous home and he was here for me.  She was spot on.  When we lost him 368 days later, she told me he couldn’t be here any longer.  If he was I wouldn’t be able to move forward and open myself up to receiving love and accepting help.  

She was right.  Boy was she right.  

The course of our lives is filled with experiences that make us who we are.  I’ve learned a lot in the past year.  With love, comes loss.  Always.  With hope, comes despair.  With success, comes struggle. We can’t have one without the other.  

When we posted on social media that we were adopting Oliver, who was a puppy mill rescue, I was concerned that people would think it was so soon after losing Wesley.  But then I realized, it doesn’t matter what ANYONE thinks.  My heart was open and ready to fill the rest of this little man’s life with nothing but love!  I didn’t realize how much I had to give until I realized how much I had lost.  It’s all part our your individual journey. It is indeed the circle of life.

That’s right. No New Year’s Resolutions for me. Honestly, who needs that kind of pressure? And this year the big day falls on a Monday! Yikes!
Seriously, all joking aside, It’s been at least 10 years since I subscribed to making resolutions. It’s a clear road to failure.

The biggest resolution made every single year is to lose weight. People go on diets. Fast. Cleanse. Give up sugar. Set unrealistic goals. The list goes on. They join the gym. Take classes. Hire a trainer. They’re all in and then about 6 weeks later, if not sooner, their motivation has diminished and they are right back where they started.

A relatively new trend is picking your “word” for the year and then elaborating on that. For example, the word “passion”. So that could be interpreted in so many different ways depending on the individual, but at least it’s a way they want to feel, which can then be applied to different aspects of their life.

Instead of making resolutions this year, why not focus on a word that resonates with you? What feelings enable you to achieve your daily goals, dreams and aspirations? Determination? Resolve? Fearless? Joyful?

A friend recently told me her word is healing…spiritually, emotionally, physically. Wow, that’s pretty powerful if you ask me.

With 2018 upon us, I hope you will remember that no matter what changes you want to make in your life, right here and now are exactly where you are supposed to be. If I have encouraged you to step away from the resolutions, and instead, pick a word, choose one that illuminates the fire within you.

As some of you know, but most do not, my father was diagnosed with lung cancer in early July, thus all my trips to California.   Early 2017 my dad started having pain in his sciatica and pelvic region.  He immediately went to his doctor and then to one of the top neurologists in Orange County.   In no particular order his doctor sent him to a chiropractor, physical therapy, put him on steroids, and finally heavy duty pain killers. As months went by things got worse.  My dad had an immense amount of trust in his neurologist, a man at the top of his field.  Finally after the pain could no longer be managed, Dr. Boyd scheduled a CT scan which revealed a lesion.  A lesion = cancer.  That then led to a biopsy.  My dad has a condition called Monoclonal Gammopathy, which can be a precursor to Multiple Myeloma.  Given the pain in his bones and the lesion found, we thought it had progressed to MM.  Very, very sadly, that was not the case.  Instead the biopsy revealed lung cancer.  It had already metastasized to his pelvic region.  As the Pet Scan then revealed, it was in his left hip, ribs and spine, bilateral in his lungs, etc, etc.

My dad was a smoker.  He quit 40 years ago.  My dad is a heart patient.  First open heart surgery when he was 32, the second when he was 45.  Angioplasties, Atrial Tachycardia, the list goes on.  Yes, heart disease runs on my father’s side of the family.  My grandfather and his 3 siblings all died before 55.  That is why I am so passionate about overall health and wellness.  That is why my heart breaks when people I care for don’t care for themselves.

Lung cancer is the worst cancer out there.  Why?  By the time one finds out they have it, it’s too late.  The oncologist told my dad with a combination of chemotherapy and immunotherapy he could have 12 to 16 months, without, 6 months.  What the oncologist didn’t tell my father was how awful chemo would be.  All my dad could hear was the amount of “time” he had.  After two rounds of chemo he ended up in the hospital for 9 days.  His blood pressure was extremely low, he went into atrial fibrillation, and his already existent edema manifested.  Once things were somewhat under control he was released.  He went home and the next day went into hospice.  That was a month ago.

I would never have imagined how awful this would be.  From the initial diagnosis and how the healthcare system “handles”  terminal illness, to the heartbreaking decline of my dad’s health.  My family has been through a lot over the years with my father’s heart conditions.  But nothing had prepared us for this, nothing. It’s not pretty my friends.

For those of you who know me well, I’m very private about truly personal things.  Stair climbing, working out, yoga, travel, cooking, my furry children & husband, that I’ll shout from the rooftop.  Motivating and encouraging others to live the best lives they can, well, I’m all about that.  But when it comes down to situations like this, I’ve always had this belief that you only share with those you are closest too or on a need to know basis.  Even then I never want to “burden” anyone.

I’ve debated writing and posting this, but I’ve learned over the past 4 months that the more I keep to myself the harder it is.  So, I’m letting go.  I’m so incredibly grateful for the unconditional love & support that Jeff provides me and my family.  And I don’t know what I would do without my dearest friends, both in Charlotte and in California.  They have been my lifeline.

To embrace a full life we have to face all of it…the good and the bad.  It’s how we face it that defines who we are and how we overcome things.  Never judge someone by the smiles you may see via photos on social media, by the conversations or emails & texts you have.  You have no idea what someone is going through and how they need to deal with it.  I say this from experience on both sides.  This journey of life continues to teach us lessons, the most important ones sometimes being the hardest.

I’ll leave you with this. “Lung cancer is by far the leading cause of cancer death among both men and women; about 1 out of 4 cancer deaths are from lung cancer. Each year, more people die of lung cancer than of colon, breast, and prostate cancers combined.” https://www.cancer.org/cancer/non-small-cell-lung-cancer/about/key-statistics.html